Temprace: You hurt me. I am no longer upset but I am still in pain.

 Merrick, It still hurts how in less than a span of 8 hours that you went from planning a fire play scene with me to telling me you no longer wanted to be my slave and in a relationship with me. It hurt that you would do it at night at a resturant where we sat down and had many intimate conversations and were making long term relationships.  It hurt that you ghosted me and never sat down with me and had that conversation we agreed to in the beginning of our relationship.  It even hurt worse that you promised we would always be friends.

Because of how you ditched me at night and ghosted me I was afraid to fully gove myself in my next relationship with Dylan /Ukai. You and I, while not as emotionally deep and commited as my relationship was with Dylan ut was something special to me. Was that your plan from the day that you asked me to bring Phil into our relationship?

I am hurt that our friendship and relationship meant so little to you that you could ghost me and pretend like we didn't even know each other. I am hurt that the pain you caused to me seems to be so insignificant and yes I am still a bit angry, not that you left me, but that it effected to the extent that if it damaged my next relationship. 

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