Good morning. My name is Adam Kratt. I am a 51 year old Queer Leatherman living in Arizona. I am married to Dylan a 25 year old Transman. I am originally from Los Angeles, California. He is originally from South Korea.
I am starting this blog at the suggestion of my Therapist. I haven't ben in Therapy since I was a child ad was on Ritalin for ADHD. I have alot of built up trauma and carry alot of scars and baggage with me. My Therapist thinks that this will help and since I do not have insurance yet and am financially not doing to well and am underemployed she said that by using this blog she can read about me and what is going on.
So why am I now at 51 in therapy. My husband Dylan has been trying to get me into therapy for months and I kept brushing it off. My relationship with Dylan, if there is anything to salvage, is damaged and wreaked. A few days ago I was going to kill myself. I had it all planned and was on my way to do it. I would have done it if not for one friend, Baddie. I had promised Baddie something and was meeting them for coffee. The conversation with Baddie inspired me to live. My well laid out plan went to shit. Damage was done though. I had made social media posts. Friends were calling me, my husband and the police. I hurt and pained Dylan and probably destroyed any chance I had of any type of relationship surviving. The days following.. my self pity probably ruined my friendship with Baddie, only time will tell.
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