Where do I begin? When I first met you at that Coffee Shop in Glendale in Februaryof 2022. I had an instant connection with you. I knew I wanted to be in your life. I was beyond happiness a year later in February of 2023 when we met again in February of 2023 at Little Saigon Resturant in Glendale. I traveled from Buckeye and you from Chandler. When we left that resturant I was elated. You were going to give me a chance.
I should have immediately severed all ties with Lilith and Lynx and focused totally on you. After both Temprace and Phil ditched me in January I was to stupid and feared that you and I wouldn't work out. It was the first of many mistakes. You were my priority and I failed to act on that. The happiest day in my life was the day we married. I know it was more for practical reason for health insurance. But for me... our marriage was glorious even if it was just you and I with Evelyn officiating and Novah and Lizzie as our witnesses.
By that time you owned my heart and my soul. I was 100% in love with you. I would have and still would today do anything to see you smile, to hear your voice and feel your kiss.
I am sorry for lacking as a partner. For allowing my fear of giving 101% for fear of rejection. If I could do it all over again.
I ask for your forgiveness for causing you pain. I apologize for my fears and past traumas holding me back.
You young man are worthy. You young man are the greatest thing to ever be apart of my life. I hope that I have not totally lost you and that one day you will allow me, as. a friend, as a play partner... as... what ever you define it.
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