Being homeless while being unemployed really sucks. I never really understood. I have been homeless before, but I was employed, I was still able to get food and once in a while get a motel room for a shower and rest. Being unemployed and homeless at the same time is a challenge. Combine that with the30 to 40 degree nights here in Arizona.
I hope that a job comes along so that at least I can get some food and buy a shower at a truck stop.
One if my biggest challenges is that to go out and look for a job means I usually miss when most places serve a free meal and the couple times i got a job from one of the day labor places I had to forgo a meal so that I could try to get to the job while a few of the jobs refused me, being homeless it is hard to get a shower or get your clothing washed.
I hope I get a job soon. I hope I can get a hot meal soon. i hope I can get a shower soon. I hope I can get a warm bed for at least one night soon.
Somehow I feel I am getting punished for something... just wish I knew for what.
I hope that Dylan is doing well and that he will find it in his heart to forgive me one day. I am sorry Dylan for not being fully emotionally available during our relationship. I was still mourning my sisters death and I was still healing from Merrick leaving me. I am sorry I tried to kill myself. Please forgive me. I love him and I fear that he hates me and will never forgive me.
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