altar is growing

 

Adultery is a crime in Arizona..

 Who knew that adultery is actually still a criminal offense in the State of Arizona.  It js a misdemeanor and the adulterer can get 30 days in jail and probation. I wonder if Sasha Sioni has ever wondered how it woukd feek to be criminally charged and locked up for having sex with another man's spouse...

Beginnings of a working Altar

 Beggining to see my Altar come together.

Si'lat, I owe you an apology

 Si'lat, when Dylan made those accusations.  I am sorry that I didn't belueve you when you denied them. I loved him and though he was being truthful.  As I see his current lies and false accusations I understand that he has been lying all along. I hope that you can forgive me.

Life is Good. working again

 Working again is great. It feels good to be productive once again. I am settling into being single once again. With the time that I have had and the contemplation that goes with that. I know I will miss Dylan, hopefully he will be happy.  I also came to realize how much I miss Merrick.  

It is time to look forward.While I had wonderful times with both Merrick and Dylan they have moved on in their lives. 

I came to Arizona to build a new life and I did that while having two great, in my opinion, relationships with two wonderful people. 

Both Merrick and Dylan made great impacts in my life. Mostly positive some negative.  But I greatly appreciate the relationships they offered me. 

Who knows what life will bring. 

Dylan Sarette, this is not good bye.

 Dylan, my love. I am saddened that our relationship and our marriage could not have ended as friends.

Dylan, I want you to know that I will always be here and available for you. It doesn't matter if it is day or night 2am or 2pm. I am only a phone call away. 

I hope that one day you will find this message. If you ever need me, I will be there. I have had this number for since 2001 and I have no plans to change it. I have had my ymail email for sunce 2001 and have no plans on changing it. 

Dylan, I am still in love with you! I will probably always be in love with you. 

Thank you for the wonderful memories.  I am sorry and apologize to you for not being the best husband and the best parner. I do hope that one day you will be able to forgive me and we can be friends again.

Love Always,

Adam.

Ready for work in the morning.

 Finally employed. Ready to start my new shift in the morning. Not the job I wanted nor the pay I wanted. At this time though... as the saying goes.. beggars can't be choosers.  

Finally Employed!

 Start a new job Monday. The pay is a lot less than I was making before but it is steady work for now until I can find something better. This week was a challenge though. wasn't able to pick up any day labor shifts. Thankfully there are ramen noodles otherwise I wouldn't have eaten this week. It is surprising that 1 ramen in the morning and 1 ramen in the evening can sustain someone. I will actually be able to have something to drink today besides water. After my plasma donation today, I will get $40, I am going to get a burger and a coffee, real food and a drink, and not a ramen and a water.

Being homeless and unemployed is a real struggle. Thankfully starting Monday I will have a job. Now... just got to focus on trying to find a place to sleep, sleeping in a reclined seat in your car gets old.